Run for her, and try to grab her. When you get her, bring her into a relationship with you. Serious in relationship, bring love to the so-called forever love.
But, sometimes accidents just come out from no where. Breaking up. Why break up? Ok fine. We don’t want to know. But before everything had started, will you ever think about that, this girl is going to stay with you forever? This girl can be trusted by you in every situation? This girl can do anything just for you?
If she is not the one or she cannot, will you still feel happy?
Well. I found this little passage from someone else’s blog. I already have it since last year. I ‘copy and paste’ it to my comp. Cause I found that this little passage here was awesome. Why? Don’t know. Just feeling awesome. But now, this little passage here is pushing me, and let me remember, what happened to me last night, forever.
I had a dream last night. A very weird dream. See, I didn’t really talk about my dreams in those old updates. But this time, telling this out is a must to me. Cause that was not just a dream, that was also like something awaking me, letting me know, and understand.
I dreamt of her. Yeah, her. That was goodness.
My dream starts.
It was all started with my phone. I saw a sms. And that was her. She was asking whether I still remember or miss her. I replied, yes I did, and everything that happened between you and me would be already ended. I have nothing to hate about you anymore. She felt kinda suprised and in the other hand I was feeling so proud of myself of forgiving her.
She asked for a date. I mean, we have not met for so long, (almost 4 months) a date is not surprising. So I promised her. She located the date at the place when we first met, Summit. That is always a weird place. LoL. I mean that place is just so-not-nice. But nevermind, since she was the one who asked for.
So I dressed up exactly like what I was wearing in the day we met for the first time. Actually I wasn’t emo. The reason I decided to dress up like that is because my mom was pretty busy these weeks. She hasn’t got her free time to iron my shirt.
‘Meet me at Watson, 11am.’ The usual place.
So I went there. And I saw her back. I still can recognize her. I felt proud of myself again for remembering her. I called her. She turned to me.
The same face. The same smiled. The same fringe.
The first thing she said, ‘My sis is coming to fetch me at night. So I can stay here for quite a long time.’
And I told her, ‘that’s good.’ =.=
So we went to the cinema floor. We bought tickets for a movie. And then we walked and talked about our new life. Oh my god. I can see her changes. And now a retarded shorty is finally growing up. LoL. She said that everyone in her new school were so friendly. And, new life is way better then old life. Aw gratz to her.
‘But I’ll never regret for what I did that are classified as right.’ ‘And I’ll not do anything ever again that my old friends disliked.’
Aw aw aw. I was so touched. Tears were all around my eye.
We chat about like so much. I couldn’t speak a joke. Cause we were like.. too serious or maybe we were not that close anymore.
‘Ahh. I feel thirsty. Do you?’ ‘Let’s go for a drink than,’ ‘Right!’
There was no target to get a drink for me, and for her. We were walking like some blind people.
‘Erm. You are bringing me to the so called unlimited drinking place again? xD’ ‘er.. ah. Not this time. x)’
Haha.. The so called unlimited drinking place is Mcdonald. Cause we can refill billion of time as long as the cup is not in the dustbin. Well, It was so embarrassing when she reminded me that I always brought her to Mcdonald and treated her with the ‘unlimited coke’ last time.
‘Do you know where is Secret Recipe?’ ‘I moved away from this place since last year, and you are already here since you were born…’
ALRIGHT ALRIGHT WAIT! I’ll try to remember where is Secret Recipe. =.=’’
That was so embarrassing AGAIN you know. How could I forget. So I brought her round and round and round. And finally we reached to the ground floor. I still couldn’t remember where the hell it located.
‘ahh. Feeling very very thirsty now.’ ‘Sorry.. Secret Recipe will probably in this floor..’ ‘wait. Why not choosing the unlimited coke huh? It’s cheap, and it’s nice, and it’s unlimited!’
AHHHH. Those were what I told her last time! she repeated it.. in my face. And for remembering, she always pouts her mouth when I told her.
So we enjoyed our ‘unlimited drink’ for about 1 hour. And then we went around again.
Of a sudden, a guy passed by and looking at her. That guy stopped and waved his hand to her. She called him, and asked how’s he doing. He replied politely and said he’s fine. He asked whether we were couple. We ignored his question, and the topic changed.
He asked her, ‘You still playing Ping Pong?’ ‘ahh no.. haha. I decided to put more effort on my study.’ ‘haha! Well I see.’ He turned to me. ‘u look so familiar.. u play Table Tennis and representing Selangor huh?’ LOL. ‘nah.. I play basketball. But I didn’t join school team for this year.’ ‘oh I see. Good luck to you.’ ‘Thanks, Bye.’
He walked away. And then I asked her whether who that guy was. And that guy was actually her school’s senior. Well, that guy looked pretty gentle. Must be a studious.
We were walking around till 8pm.
‘Omg!’ ‘?’ ‘What’s with this huh?’ She showed me the movie tickets. ‘… maybe next time? xD’
LoL.
Not too long later, her phone rang. Her sis was waiting her outside.
She holds my hand in a sudden. And that was the first touch since the day we didn’t contact.
‘Can you promise me for something?’ ‘.. Well, say bah..’ ‘Remember me, always. Forever. Think about me when you’re free. Can you?’ ‘I will.. Don’t worry..’
Hmm. Why this came of so sudden? Started to feel little weird.
‘We can meet again, next time! Right?’
Then she cried.
‘Why you cry?’ My hands went to her face and wiped her tears away..
‘What if I say, we’ll never meet again?
‘oh my ex-baobei, why not huh?’ -ex-baobei was the name we calling each other when we break up.
‘I lost my baobei, and now I am loosing my ex-baobei too..’
‘What do you mean??’
‘My sis is bringing me back to Banting. And my mom said she’s brining me to Singapore..’
Ohgosh.
‘When??’
‘2 more days.. ex-baobei..’
‘Why didn’t you tell me earlier?? We should appreciate this day!’
‘You serious?’
‘YES!’
‘Well.. Because I wanted to hear what you’ll say and how’s your reaction..’
‘…..’ I closed my eye and my tears were out of control..
‘Thank you. Your tears are finally released just because of me..’
‘Dream of me.. And we’ll meet there..’
So she went away.. I didn’t even wave to her.
Ding Dong. Sms came.
[Last message for my ex-baobei, I miss you.]
I couldn’t reply.
For those are really reading this, don’t be sesat ok, what I wrote are all true. But that was my dream, last night.
After she went off, I woke up from my sleep and then I fell asleep again.
And I started to dream again.
Here comes the new character.
Aunty Lim, My baby sitter. (Actually I do not have one, but my dream made one for me. You guys ever experienced something like this before right?)
Dream continues..
‘Kian.. why you cry?’ ‘ar? Aunty? Ow.. I was.. erm. Why am I here now?’ ‘Your mom sent you here.’ ‘why? Eh? Why all my clothes are all here already? why?’ ‘your mom packed it here. From now, u’re staying with me.’ ‘WHY? Where’s my mom?’ ‘Well.. she hates you.. you should know what you did yesterday..’
Omg. she found out. I went out with the girl that she hates the most! And I hold her, and I cry for her! My mom don’t want me anymore..
‘aunty.. I really felt sad, that’s why I cried.’ ‘Maybe u can tell those to your mom..’ ‘aunty.. do you know what is actually happened?’ ‘well, love is blind.’ ‘?’ ‘you told me about this girl before. I knew that something’s going to happened eventho you guys are stop contacting already. ’
‘buu-but what do you mean by love is blind?’
After that, I cant remember what was next. When I was awake, it was already 6.10am. My mind can’t stop thinking about her. Old memories covered me. My heart felt pain. My tears came down without directions. This type of feeling is known as, HURT.
Actually, I’m not trying to let you guys know how interesting is my dream. But the real thing is, I wanted to let all of you know, I’ve finally understand that, when you break up, (in a serious relationship) you’ll surely, 100%-ly get hurt.
When I was in a relationship with her, I was so-serious.
But when we break up, the only one who get hurt was her.
Why I still felt so happy huh?
Because, I was avoiding the knife. After breaking up, the DAMN knife is already inside my heart, just that it has not hurt me yet.
But this knife hurt me badly, yesterday, after the dream.
If I could tell her how I feel now, I would like to say, I was hurt too.
kian~
Updated @ 8:37 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
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Holiday is gg-ing soon. very soon. so watcha did and wad u want to do somemore before the holiday is gg? xD i feel like gg n back to school ;D haha. weird hor? tot im so hardworking for homework? naaah. ur dream bah. xD u know what m i doing in school. wahaha. well. this week aka holiday week, i enjoyed outgoing with friends n my dear neighbour -.- well lets see.
Mon >> Times Square + KL Tues >> SP Wed >> Summit Thurs >> Neighbour's house Fri >> Summit
lol. so i decided not to go out anymore. but, instead of staying at home, why dun go for school? xD lol. okok. i talk bout others, not school anymore xD
well. outgoing was fun. but wtf. i 4get to take those funny pics. =.= just get some, show ya peeps. ;D
mon >> after KL. i came back around 3am zzz. scolded by parents. and i stay up til 4am ++. look at me, i think i was pouting xD
lol. dat was melvin xD look at him. aw .xD this pic was taken during basketball-ing.
dis 1 lerh, taken after mamak. (mamak is after basketballing xD) oh. dat was foo loong n michelle ;D
lol. dis 1 was taken few hours ago.. summit xD jean jean was enjoying kp's $$ xD
haha. oh. watched a show. wow. i stil can remember the moment when the head of the priest has chopped down ;D
neway. happy holidays peeps. Ciao ^^
KiiiiiaN
kian~
Updated @ 7:46 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
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yay! holiday is here!
wheeee. so wadsup everyone. i read the last few updates of mine. it was like.. so not-serious huh. haha. and i notice something.. the last few updates have less pictures. just some boring words ;D i know.
tomorrow's monday. argh. i got to attend tuition class. grr. my dad registered the tuition for me last week. and i was actuali suggest to start that tuition after the holiday. but.. my dad want me to start as fast as possible. zzz. sad.
anyway, my aunty was here for the whole week. she just went back. my parents fetch her back to seremban this morning, and dey came back at about 8pm. so before this, i was actuali like.. nothing to do huh? on9 whole day? maybe i'll. ps2? arg. no new game. TV? hmm. im not interested on tv. study? oh well, cut the crap.
But there was still something interesting to do. ;D radio baby. aha. at first i enjoy all those songs that i burned it since ages ago. later on i felt boring automactily. and den i turned it to the FMs. usuali i dont really enjoy radio tuner, because i onli listen to some songs when i feel like listening to it. and radio dont know what song i want right. xD
haha. well. it's true, my whole afternoon was radio and comp. ahh wait, and 2 packets of maggi mee ;D mom told sis to cook something. but we end up with maggie mee. haha. hmm. ei? how could i 4get. i watched rob-b-hood again with my sis xD a dvd lar. and daarn, jackie chan's nose is reali big o.o
LOL.
i dont think that big nose is nice. do ya? maybe yes, but for certain ppl. i like my nose. ;D coz the height is normal, and not too big. ahah. i like my eye. x) tho de cant bling like some goo goo eye but hey, this is a style. =P lol. and does someone critizing my skin colour huh? tanned is power. and dont think there's onli pale and fair skin is perfect in this world.
lalala~ what m i talking about? ^ lol. :P
Kiss you gg/ means, a lil similiar to Kiss you goodbye. =/
lol. today im so weird huh. write and post those emo stuff. haha! but hu cares. and yea, i just went around on youtube.com and i actuali wanted to find a song by leehom. but atlast i get attracted by this.
haha. listen to her voice. my gawd. fall in love with it, and her, straight away. xD hope she'll be the next big thing. haha. and i'll surely buy her album. x)
continue for what i trying to say just now, i was finding a leehom song. and yea, that song is bu yao hai pa. but now i dont feel like dl-ing it anymore. cause that girl can sing even nicer that the original one. ^^'' sori to all wang lee hong's fanz. taha..
well. i think i better gg now. cause dad's nagging is real real boring. xD
Ciiao all.
Caaxoe is love <3>
kian~
Updated @ 7:09 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
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Let's see if you can get through it. If not, you're too scared about the truth
1.Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - never.
2. Are you crushin on someone? - i dun think so.
3.Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? - hmm. i think so.
4.Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? - yes.
5. Are you happier single or in a relationship? - now, i prefer single.
6.Have you ever cheated on someone? - i dont want to, but sorry.
7.Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? - i dont want too, but i did.
8.Have you ever had your heart broken? - maybe someone should broke my heart roughly.
9.Have you ever broken someone's heart? - yea.
10.Talk to any of your exes? - sure. but not so.. well, u know.
11.If you could go back in time and change things, would you? - erm. i dont want to go back.
12.Think any of your exes feel the same? - maybe? but..
13.Do you think that you are a good girlfriend/boyfriend? - maybe i am.
14.Have you been in an abusive relationship? - nolar. lol
15.Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - i believe, but i prefer not to deserve
16.Do you believe in love at first sight? - sure.
17.Do you want to get married? - sure. but not now lar.
18.has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? - YES. =.=
19.Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? - lol. i'll never =) but sorry, i did.
20.Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? - i dont know. i dont want to do this anymore, i dont want to be the reason why.
Repost this as "The Hurt Survey"
kian~
Updated @ 3:34 AM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
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nothing much to say. just update. hmm. waiting fer the so-called LONG holiday. 1 more week to go. wee~ dad's nagging, nagging me to go take some tuition classes. =.= opssie! im busy liao. aihz.
and, whr is that disc!? i lost that freaking disc.. i cant upload those photos from my phone. zzz sobs.
neway, 2day's the last day of cny. hehe. enjoy oh!
